pain and hurtness for my believeness

God what should I do? I always patient and sincerly with him, but why I am sicked by him. Hurt,pain etc. Should I move from him? But how haura, I don`t want haura have experience live like me. But I dont want sicked. If you have written I should live with hom Ok I agree but our life without another girl. If he has a girl, please make he relise that I honest and love him. Feeling sadness. i know I dont have anything that aproaded. But I have knowledges that can I aproad self, i am honer teacher, i know I havent yet become pns teacher. Should I judge that a shoulder has not not sincerely and honest. Please show me the truth way that should I walk. I am sure I never walk alone. Just try and pray. The human is changed their hurt by you God. Please i dont want live with a lier. Really hate. I just keep silent without angry,ask or everything. I want to live happiness. God give me the best way, please become me pns.i just to live with my daughter. I dont care what will he do, he doesnt think about my heart. I have a beutiful heart become woman sholehah. I regreet and i give up what have done. Should i say finish my believeness. I judge this bad dream, selfish habit for you. You only pretend every your walks.